Released April 1, 2022
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All songs written by Adam Gaither (except where otherwise stated); ©2022 Barely There Studio. Recorded at Barely There Studio(s) between February and July 2021; "May Remorse Be With You" and "The World Without You" rec. 2019 Produced, engineered and mixed by A.G./ Additional engineering and production by LUCY DAWN All instruments performed by SMASH ADDAMS; LUCY DAWN sings background and harmony vocals on tracks 1, 2, 12 and 13 / plays keyboards on tracks 1, 7-12 / rhythm guitar on track 4; ROLAND TURNER plays drums on tracks 4 and 9 Originally a 44-track project released as a digital 3XLP + E.P. boxset on Nov. 26, 2021 [BTSLP42].
"I saw something else under the sunThe world without it was fading like an electrical tubeDying a flicker at a time in the grocery store aisles we used to go walking through now we go round back to the chalkboard we go back but there is nothing to do that wont be done. Nothing should be unsung."
WHAT FOREVER MIGHT MEAN? -------------------- What forever might mean? You will never feel alone again Sounds like a dream You had and you can't remember Someone might see That you have a heart to love me tender Love me tenderly, love me true Please dear, forever Remember the time you walked away with no shoes in the snow? Or the time I hooked up the tailpipe of my car I couldn't get it right (Let's get it right) Baby, let's not fight anymore What forever might mean What forever might mean? (What forever might mean) What forever might mean? You will never feel alone again Sounds like a dream you had and you can't remember It's like a dream The kind you can't remember But you know it's true COUSINS ------------ What makes us family? What makes us even friends? I didn't know in the beginning How you would wind up looking in the end (Chorus:) Never wanna grow up, do you? But the lies you're telling aren't true I don't believe a word you say Didn't wanna make it so bad Sit around feeling so sad Difference between a father and a dad? When I think about the pain Never wanna feel that way again The creek's run dry, the sky does the same You're washed away BETWEEN HOPE & CAUTION ------------------------ When you think you're gonna die yesterday Today seems so sweet You could lose your shit tomorrow Today's no day to fall apart Between hope and caution and everything between Twistin and turnin with the fire on these wheels When you're exhausted with this life I hope you know; don't keep your eyes closed Realize what you want to say When the nights are bittersweet And look out for tomorrow Today's no way to end; start again When you're exhausted with these things in your mind I hope you know that whether you stay or go Whether it's yes or no; if you're there Just know that I love you so Between hope and caution And everything in between Lost in that headspace How far away it all feels And if you're exhausted with these things in your mind I hope that everytime; if you stay or go? If it's a 'yes' or a 'no' if you're there Just know that I love you so When you think you're gonna die yesterday Today is so sweet... Between hope and caution and everything between Twistin and turnin with the fire on these wheels And if you're exhausted with these things in your mind I hope you know; don't keep your eyes closed
MAY REMORSE BE WITH YOU (co-written with Lucy Dawn) ------------------------ Who's been keepin' the score? Like I knew All I can say is let remorse be with you (All I can say is let remorse be with you) My hands aren't tied enough to break these chains You'll be chokin' on the dust of my remains (In case you didn't know, I'm fuckin' insane) Now do you want some more? I do; but not the kind that's underneath those shoes Caught you lookin' away; I know the things that you do May remorse be with you My head's on fire but I will not burn Live long enough and maybe you will learn My hands aren't tied enough to break these chains You'll be chokin' on the dust of my remains TOMBSTONE ------------- My tombstone ain't in Kentucky Not cos I'm dead, man--because I got lucky There were so many times I nearly threw it all away Sometimes I still can't count all the days I am from Mississippi Wasn't by choice so I hope you'll forgive me I have seen what's in the past Don't need to go there so I'll write a second act Some find it funny Not cos I'm well read Because it hasn't been sunny In my mind for a long time I was born in Memphis, Tennessee Raised in a small town that don't speak to me And I finally made it out of that place But can I outrun this doom? Can I outrun this doom? Tombstone ain't in Kentucky Not cos I haven't tried Boys, believe me Sometimes I feel like a motherless child Takin' my pills for the deep sleep But I'm wide awake I'm wide awake I am from Mississippi It wasn't by choice so I hope you'll forgive me I have seen what's in the past Don't need to go there so I'll write a second act
WHAT YOU ARE IN THE DARK ------------------------ Sometimes you're the one that's behind the wheel Sometimes you're the one that's runnin' From whatever that it is that I see that's comin' It's comin' after me What you are in the dark sometimes can really blind you You get lost in the lights that try to guide you To get out from underneath where they find you Like ninja mind control with your voodoo Break away, do you what you wanna do Sometimes you're the one that's behind the wheel Sometimes you're the one that's runnin' From whatever that it is that you said You see that's comin' It's comin' after me Yeah, it's comin' It's comin' after you Yeah, it's comin' SLOPPY MOSES -------------- (instrumental) GENTLEMAN ----------- (Love, love, love, love) Love to love you, baby (Love, love, love, love) Love to love you, baby Now you know I know who's been running the show This whole time; I didn't see it comin' my way You keep runnin' around And all I hear's the sound of another thing fallin' down If you want a gentleman You gotta tell me right now Right now? Yes, you can Yes, you can Mama didn't raise no fool And I been a long time out of school Always drunk when you miss me Just hang it up Stay off my phone; the line is dead Just another hole right in your head Crying to another dial tone (Love, love, love, love) Love to love you, baby (Love, love, love, love) I said I love to love you, baby! (Love, love, love, love) Now that I know; I been runnin' the show this whole time You didn't see it comin' your way When you keep on comin' round now? All I hear's the sound of another thing fallin' down You're not worth a gentleman; not worth my time THE WORLD WITHOUT YOU (co-written with Lucy Dawn) ---------------------- The world without you ain't what it used to be More electric cars and high priced gasoline It all feels the same to me Except you're somewhere unseen The world without you is a shame So many years left to place the blame Put on public shame Didn't wanna see me, didn't wanna know my name Father's doin' fine on seventy-nine Your sister's a grandma, too Now that the foot has the other shoe I'm finding out my truth (Mother) (Oh, my brother...) Brother, the regulators are gone It ain't easy havin' pals and so on Glad I'm not alone; you were gone too soon Heard your voice on the telephone I had hoped to see you soon The world without me will probably always be But down the road they call eternity I'll stop and think about you and me [Spoken:] The world without you is a shame So many years left to place the blame Put on public shame They didn't wanna see me They didn't wanna know my name Don't wanna face this world without you Without you (without you) Without you (without you) Without you /////////////////////////////////////////// LIFE BEGINS AT FORTY (Too) ------------------ Life begins at forty? I guess we'll see Thirty-nine years ain't enough for me And some people would agree Life ends everywhere you see Anywhere, anyplace that's not where you wanna be In your own time, you'll see So don't take so long (Don't take so long) (Don't take so long) To say what you should have said Don't live in fear (Don't live in fear) Nobody knows where do we go from here Will life begin at forty? Will life begin at forty, yeah? Yeah? FATHER'S ONLY SON ------------- I am my father's only son I can only hope that he's proud of me All my life I tried to have my fun But when everybody turned the light out on me There was nobody else to call And by the way, I'm sorry There was nobody left to care When they locked me down And after that, I never was the same Only a number; not a name Life is fucking strange I am my father's only son I was my mother's too All my life I've watched the world come undone But only love is true Yes, I know That only love is true WHAT IF IT'S ME?? --------------- If you were me you still wouldn't understand These days and nights sometimes they never end Sorry you said goodbye, my friend I'll be movin' on; now that all the love is gone (Chorus:) I was throwin' my life away Painting the walls of my mind with all the things you say You were toxic; a waste of time Now I'm burning from the sun It shines on everyone in the dark What if it's me? What if it's me that never quits What if it's you that just don't get it Sorry I even tried again Another funeral; maybe I'll see you then ON A SPECTRUM NO ONE SEES ------------------------- On a spectrum nobody sees I got a hole in my head to catch the breeze On a spectrum no one else sees (Chorus:) Thunderclouds talking to me Freezin' rain and lightning Looking out my window I feel the pain Can't tell if I'm cryin' Don't know when I'm lyin' to myself Something's gonna happen to me Fear that something is probably gonna come to be It's all gonna come to be On a spectrum no one can tell What's right or what's wrong; oh well Heaven and hell? THURSDAYS ---------- Thursday's on a weekend And all the money's been spent All the friends will be at it again But they don't even know my name They don't even know my name They don't look at me the same Guess my reputation was to blame How do you sleep at night With all the things that you do After a while, you're just a means to an end You won't believe in the truth ASTERISK -------- I am the asterisk I am above it all Am I the asterisk? Am I the exception to the rule? Seems like I'm doing fine Seems like I haven't lost my mind Nothing is perfect I think you've known it all along I am the asterisk I am the asterisk Are you the asterisk? Are you really underneath it all? Underneath it all, you're so scared You don't fool me You can't fool me cos I know You can't look in the mirror Your reflection might show But you're the asterisk It's in the fine print The kind you can't see? You gotta make your eyes squint WHAT MAMA TRIED TO TELL ME ------------------------- What mama tried to tell me Don't grow up too fast But I've been takin' lots of candy from strangers That put it in my bag What mama tried to tell me Don't throw it all away It doesn't matter what we say It only matters what we do What mama tried to tell me Hold onto the ones you love Hold onto the things we have What mama tried to tell me Don't throw it all away You'll understand it someday And someday eventually comes DON'T TAKE IT SO BAD ------------------- When it's my time to die I won't cry I won't shed a single tear Spent my whole life living in fear Took a lot of drugs to get me here Don't take it so bad You never know when you're gonna be sad Gonna miss you when it's over Don't take it so bad Better than doin' time Tried to make it mind I won't shed no tears Took a lot of drugs just to get me here Don't take it so bad Never know when you're gonna be so bad Gonna miss you when it's over Don't take it so bad You're looking tired Too tired to say much When you're looking in the mirror What do you see? What do you see? Hey, don't take it so bad You'll never know when you're gonna be so bad Don't wanna make you cry Don't wanna make you sad Don't take it so bad I'm gonna miss you when I'm gone HOBBES ------ Where are you now? It's freezing outside Are you still alive? So long ago I remember when you went away You went away Tried to make some sense of this Tried not to think about what I miss Where did you go? No one would know Are you up in the trees? Hiding from me? You went away You went away Try to make some sense of this Try not to think about what I miss Where are you now? Where are you now? Try to make some sense of this Try to not think about what I miss Try to make some sense of this But it don't make no sense at all Where are you now? You went away You went away You went away Where are you now? (where are you now) (Where are you now) Where are you now? (Where are you now) Where are you now ["Holy shit." - Lucy] ----------
